January 28, 2006

It's a Mood Day...

The past few days I had a realization that I may never be the graphic designer I wanted to be. It felt like the saddest thing in the world for a few hours. Of course I forced myself to forget the idea or the possibility of this. After all that's negative thinking and not allowed. If you think you can't you can't, if you think you can you can...

A lot of 27 year olds right now find themselves doing whatever pleases them and while I am happy to be where I'm at I do realize that because where I'm at there are bigger priorities in the picture that matter to me much more than becoming a workaholic.

However, I can't seem to set aside the idea of wanting to be much more than what I am today. Where ever the tomorrow may be of one thing I'm sure: I want it to be a better tomorrow along with my family.

Figuring out the equation of balancing life, love, parenting, careers and friendships can at times make me feel a little bit like Einstein... trying to figure out at one point all these mathematical, scientific equations!! Ayyy! Anyhow... in the end I find myself in a race and I'm nowhere near the finish line. I'm willing to go the extra mile.

I couldn't help to look up Einstein and I ran into one quote that I find suitable for tonight:

"The ideals which have lighted my way, and time after time have given me new courage to face life cheerfully, have been kindness, beauty, and truth. The trite subjects of human efforts, possessions, outward success, luxury have always seemed to me contemptible.

* See what happens when I post late at night... too much deep thinking and too much information *

Below is a picture of a cake I made for my mom. I think it turned out beautifully. It was the first time I used the 'fondant' as the frosting. The middle part is a twinkie covered in pink fondant. While fondant looks beautifully on cakes I find that it tastes terrible so next time I do this I rather stick to real creamy frosting. ~ goodnight! ~


7 comments:

Calvin Lee said...

Hmm, Yummy!!! Looks delicious. :)

I have seen your works and I love them. You are a great designer and you can do it.

Jamel said...

Stop by and see me sometime babe I am sure it will put you in a good mood.

http://jamelgrowup.blogspot.com/

Alina Chau said...

What's a beautiful yummy looking cake!! AMAZING!!

Mary said...

awesome! One of my coworkers does cakes and she can do some fun stuff too - got me looking at all the cake stuff and I wish I could do some sometimes too. No time for it through...plus, I like cake too much :) It'd be gone!

Melissa said...

Maria! Why do you feel this way??? Amy would tell you that you need to say, "I am God!" :-) C'mon, you are only 27 and there is so much time for you to get where you want to be. Aren't we opening up that card shop someday?? You are so talented and we are going to own the handmade/personalized greeting card industry!

devon said...

are you serious!??!!

that cake is awesome!?!? how did you get into this? fondant looks so fun. i am cake stupid though. i'd love to take a class.

as for your designs.... you're better than the average bear maria. ;)
and you know it.

Beth Berst said...

Despite your moody day, you produced a very beautiful and happy cake.

I agree, fondant tastes bad (althought it looks so smooth and polished). I love the twinkie idea! Very clever!

Sending you positive vibes that your mood will soon lift and all will be well.